4.21.2006

Perceptions: 2

I hate my job! I know a lot of people say they hate their job, but I mean it I really hate mine. I have to sit here everyday and listen to the same sounds day in day out. I mean how much torture can a human take. I'm not an evil person, so why do I feel so bad. I'm just the turnkey. I walk back and forth to make sure nothing weird is happening and I turn in a little report at the end of my shift, that's it. But, after 5 months it's waring me down. I'm not one of the people who actually...well I mean I don't come in contact with them. I don't know. I wouldn't even be feeling this way normally but there is one inmate. Cell number 1238 prisoner number P122105. He got here in December, cried all day Christmas. That nearly broke my heart. I don't know why though. Just about every prisoner that comes in here cries about how innocent they are. It's like a theme song around her. My daddy was a judge and I am a strong believer in our good nation justice system. But, still, I can't shake this feeling like maybe...

I'm standing outside the 1200 block. I can't go down there yet. Their not done. My Distinguished colleagues are having some "fun" with the inmates. I wanna help these men in some way...no one should have to go through that...but I'm a woman in a man's world, even worse than that a man's prison.

As I finally walk down I hear him whimpering. I can't help it, I stoop and take his hand through the bars. "Do you want me to bring you something?" His lonely sad eyes stare back at me.
"Please get me a lawyer," he whispers. "I'm innocent." I guess I couldn't hide my disbelief of his words, because he said. "Look in my file and then you'll know the truth."

Those words haunted my for two days. I know better than to mess with the prison files, and especially not on the word of an inmate. I say this to myself as I walk down the corridor to the red door marked "Level 1 Security Authorized Employees Only". I'm only a level 2. But I've seen the code punch a hundred times. In less than a minute I am flipping through the files. I see his name for the first time. Alvin Priestly, prisoner number P122105. I brace myself for the horrors that are inside. There are definitely no saints in the 1200 block. I take a deep breath and open it.

Empty. This guy has no record not even so much as a trial date much less a date of release. I can't believe there has to be some information somewhere.

I open the computer files, finally. I read. He was an illegal alien rights activist. Arrested several times, but only for sit-ins and demonstrations. In his last documented trial he claimed he had extortion information connecting gang members to....No, it can't be. Govenor Childs. Well he wasn't Govenor back then. At the time he was the District Attorney! No wonder he has been here all this time without a trial. Childs was trying to silence him.

I need a plan. But, I can't let an innocent man go through those beatings for one more night. Ten minutes until... I gotta think quick. I grab a set of the master keys off of the "Ever Sleeping" head guard. This just may work. In a flash I'm at the 1200 Block trying not to make noise or draw attention to myself. All of the prisoners are asleep stretched out on their cot's. Well, all except for him. He was wide awake and even still had his shoes on.

"Come on," I said unlocking his cell door. Without a word he rose up and followed me.

We ran as quickly and quietly as possible. I knew exactly how to get around without being seen by cameras. As we approached the last door I felt invigorated. I had done more by helping this innocent man escape than I had in all my years of "protecting and serving". I was a liberator of those who were trapped by the system itself. When we sat down in my car. he made a sound like he was choking up. "You..." "No it's ok I believe you I saw the file. You should never have been in there in the first place." "No," he said again. "You made it too easy for me." Before I could figure out what he meant the thin blade slid across my throat. Nothing happened at first but second later the blood spilled out of the wound. That must be a really sharp blade. I thought as he pushed me from the drivers seat. It probably took him years of sharpening on the sement floor. Waiting for a bleeding heart like me to take the bait.

If I had thought to ask someone anyone why his file was empty I would've known that on his last escape attempt he got into the file room destroyed his paper file and contaminated his the electronic copy. The next day the state was sending updated files for our system. His whole history would have been all there. He was faking about the extortion information. He was actually the one getting money from gangs all over the state. His illigal immigrant rights coalition was actually a front for gang activity. He was even connected to the Al Quaida!

The worse part is that he wasn't even getting beatings. He was hurting himself. It was all a show. All a show.

© Unveiling (2006)

ATALANTA: Not the city, the person...

Okay well before any of you out there in cyber world think that I am a lesbian, not that there's anything worng with that..., I'd like to clear up that Atalanta is a figure in greek mythology. Look her up if you've never heard of her.

Always one stride ahead of the pack, a
Talent that is often despised, yet
Anxiously awaited. No man is man enough to
Leave me in the dust. Never that! I have
A right to be in the front of the pack.
Never say never! Because,
Then never comes true.
And a golden apple will get you, too.

© Unveiling (2006)

Eating Alone: Because I felt left out! LOL

As the hostess walks me through a maze of tables bustling with family, friends, lovers, and acquaintences, I look straight ahaead avoiding all eye contact. Yes this is an uncommon event, but why is it such a spectacle? I can eat alone if I feel like it! I think to myself feeling eye all over me. They are summing me up now. Why is she by herself? Is there a young man coming to see her? Is he late? Doesn't she have friends, family, anyone? Maybe she has an aweful disposition, in which case that's good for her that she has no one. The questions would be endless at least in my own mind if I had let it all in. But, I choose against it. This is my favorite restaurant and I deserve to come here whenever I feel like it. I refuse to let anyone make me feel bad about that. I think to myself again. I wish I could just shake this feeling that someone is staring at me. The waitress aproaches my table. I'm about to tell her what my order is when she sets down another place setting. My face gets warm and I feel my eyes moistening. I don't want to have to say this out loud. "Excuse me, this is a party of one." "Oh I remember you said that, but the gentlemen said it would be alright with you." "What gentlemen?" He has a slow, almost methodical stride as he walks toward my table. His gaze glides across the room as he passes. A king letting all know he had arrived, and that they should act accordingly. He had to be 6'3 with broad shoulders and skin the color of dark chocolate. Everything he had on from the Burberry glasses to his Stacy Adams Shoes was pristine. When I looked at him I could only think of a Jamaican term that I hadn't used in ages, "Criss". My thoughts, which were lingering somewhere in between 'ooo' and 'ahh', were broken by the waitress whispering, "Do you want me to tell him to find another table?"

© Unveiling (2006)

4.12.2006

I'm Not Listening

Irrate indignation is all that comes out of your
Mouth. Telling me I should leave

Now knowing that I am steadfast
On staying put.
Testing me to see how grievious this

Longing I have in my soul truly
Is. Although the hand of God
Seemingly is against us, our
Trials only come to make us stronger.
Evidently this pact between me and thee will
Never faulter. Heavenly discernment has
Illuminated the path, though
Narrow it may be. Where ever you go I'll
Go. If you stay so will I.

© Unveiling (2006)

4.11.2006

LOST COIN

Listlessly longing for the portion
Of treasure I had at one time possessed.
Systematically searching the crevices of my space,
Tearing about fighting off the onset of disappointment.

Crying to the God of my salvation,
Oh hear me Lord,
Ignite a fire that I might find that which was lost! Then with
Nearly no hope remaining, out of the corner of my eye something shines.

© Unveiling (2006)

QUIXOTIC

Quizzically
Undermining the
Intergrity of a system, but portraying
Xenophobic characteristics in the pursuit of correcting the problem.
Overthrowing the government of democracy only to end up with
Tyrany reigning supreme.
Ideals of equality becoming
Cluttered with the thoughts of supremacy.

© Unveiling (2006)

4.06.2006

Hey slow poke...guess what this is called!!!???

Yo, yo, Yo
Oh snap, I know you heard the news.
Urbz: sims in the city is out and hot!

So you think the pistons will go all the way?
Haven't seen a legacy like this since Jordan and the bulls!
Over the top nothing but NET!
Unlike the masters, nothing but Hole IN ONE!
Love to see Tiger get it.
Did you see it...Did you see It!

Business is booming
Especially on the Apprentice!

Road Rules/Real World challenge is heating up!
Everybody Loves Raymond, and Raven, and Reba and BOONDOCKS!
Angriest Man in America, and with good reason!
Deal or no Deal??? Who wants to be a Millionaire?
I sure do but I don't know how...
Nick Cannon any suggestions?
Got anything to add Ashton?

Aww well Gotta Keep watching...

Barely staying awake at work. Better quit, because I have to see the
Olympics. I don't know anyone in it but that's beyond the point.
Only a few hourse in each day, I gotta see as much as possible...
Keep watching, Keep looking, always a step behind...I wonder why?

© Unveiling (2006)

Pillow Talk

Peaking at you from beneath the covers,
I
Lovingly
Let you into my mind. I
Open up to you in a
Way that I haven't in a very, very long

Time. Not because it's a required
Act, or even because it's expected, but it just comes naturally
Like air. I wanna say everything to you. Let's
Keep this between us.

© Unveiling (2006)

4.05.2006

Perceptions

My name is Anna Marie. The 5th of this coming September will mark 29 years God has given me on this here Earth. And, not a one that I can remember was ever easy. But, I'm working at it. I had my first child at the tender age of 12. I thought of her as my little doll. I'd carry her every where I went. Her pappy didn't like that though. She looked to much like him I guess. His wife really didn't like that. Although she and I never really saw eye to eye. Guess she was mad at me because I had his first child. She had no reason to be mad though, because it's not like he wanted mine. I'd never let my little doll know though. I've married since then, but that doesn't stop him from getting what he wants. Naw, what the master says goes. He'll send my Joe out on some hunting trip with the overseeer and come a sniffing round me by night fall. I have 4 chillun and all of them look like massuh. But, Joe is a good man. He treats all of them like his own. If he knows they ain't he doesn't let on. I think he knows, though. Whenever he gets sent off the plantation he gives me this long sorrowful look. He won't touch me for a week after he gets back, but he treats me real kindly.

© Unveiling (2006)

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I never should have given her that gun. I know that now. Staring down the barrel of a .45 will make you sober up real quick. She's not shaking or crying like I thought she'd be, though. The way she would have been 6 months ago. Before...him. Naw, she's holding that gun like a true professional. The way I'd do it. We could have been partners. Have every Rough Rider in the Trap on their hands and knees. Some wishing we wouldn't kill'em and some wishing we were their lady. Number one at least. They'd know better than to try us with that 3 and 4 mess. To bad. We could have been something great. To bad I'm gonna have to take that gun from her hands. She probably won't even see it coming.

© Unveiling (2006)

Closure: I know I'm a day late...so what???

Cradle of
Life's failed impulses.
Order created from the acceptance of
Solitude.
Uncertain anticipation
Recognized as the unrequited
Eve of reality.

© Unveiling (2006)